I'm having one of those weeks where I just want to be by myself, and get away from all the stress, worries, noise, etc... I just want to get alone in the mountains, in a cabin, just me by myself and my bible. A good cup of coffee. And just let God put his arms around me and tell me He loves me.
Its been a bad week. I won't go into specifics, and it's probably not as bad as I'm making it out to be, but still it has been really hard. I've just realized how much I sometimes hate myself. Sometimes I am my biggest critic. Sometimes I call myself the harshest names. I'm always telling other people not to hate themselves, and I think self-hatred is one of my biggest problems. yes there is the voice that says find your self worth in God, and i do try, but eventually i get my eyes off of God. sometimes its just hard. Sometimes life is really good at distracting you from God, and getting your eyes off of God.
I do know I can't wait for June so i can go on vacation, get away from all the noise, distractions, stress, etc.... Well i really don't know what i was trying to say in this blog, but I guess I just wanted to ramble a bit.
